Sunday, January 3, 2016

strange place, new ideas

insecurity.

even just writing the word...i'm really hoping that it's just that time of the month, and i'm overly sensitive, because i can't handle it. that intense gut-feeling that all is indeed not right. it's a strange place to be. please tell me that i'm not the only one who experiences this-i hate it... and if you do, i am so sorry.

i don't have any real details to share here, i just know that when i am unsettled, i tend to do more exercising (i felt this way at hearlight during my last few months), and walking, running, exercise seems to be the only real distraction... #whatswrongwithme. today it was pretty intense, and perhaps it's just a kick in the face from satan, as the sermon last night was excellent, and i've been given a commission for the new year to LOVE well-that can't be a good thing. today was rough. it's ok, tomorrow school starts and it will be better. 

Christmas was great, coming home was fine-i was able to get two dental appointments knocked out...new year's was good (which i've already spoken of)...and i was able to meet with jo anne, my former principal and mentor. I wish now that i'd started what i should have back when she was at our school. and after speaking to her yesterday, i have begun the process to begin moving forward on that path.  if i do this, it could lead to a longer dallas stay..sorry so vague, i'll feel better when i have everything in order.
the original plan was cindy's, but they had a gas main leak, so ihop it was! i wasn't disappointed (although i would've loved to try cindy's!)

i appreciate jo anne more than i can express. she is thoughtful and really sees the potential in me and lets me know-that means a lot. she is a busy woman, so the fact that she finds time for me, speaks volumes. 

- but i have not stopped looking at img in fl, as i am desperate for the beach and shea is certainly in a special category as far as friends go, and to be able to hang out and adventure with her is enticing!

i just made this dish:
it's a special fried rice recipe i found with cauliflower- i was pleased! i will have plenty extra- looking at you, andrea and jeri-i'll bring a taste tomorrow! 
i was excited to try something new with cauliflower, and i was not disappointed.

 not much else to tell-it will be good to get back into the swing of things and see everyone tomorrow! life is better than we perceive-be content tonight-if you are at a point of frustration, remember to look at others in the image of God-

julie

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