Friday, June 17, 2022

back- because the stories continue

it's no secret that life moves on whether you want it to or not. bruno was a heavy loss. even now, just writing that, even though more than a year has passed, my eyes tear up a bit and my throat gets dry...and i sneak a peak over at chaco who has stopped yapping long enough to fall into a peaceful sleep beside me as we close out a LOOOOOONG week!

 i seriously have NO idea what made this week stretch into what seems like 2 weeks, and i know it's not just me. so, yeah, it's been a minute since i've had the interest or courage to pick up here again. so much happens over a year and 1/2!  i suppose this is the update and restart. 

 so. let's start with chaco- he is doing well! my best and truest companion! he is still afraid of anything that makes a strange noise, although he has gotten a little braver. storms are still our biggest nemesis, and we are battling that with a little cbd oil. it may be a long hurricane season. fortunately we have also found a great pup-sitter as travel has picked up a bit since covid - he is enamored! whenever i come home from a trip, he still goes running to the guest room for the next couple mornings looking for her! that makes me happy! i know he is in good hands-

so, what is new? in the last quarter of last year, i applied and interviewed for a new position at my company. what you should know about me is that i have never really been a competitive person with desire to 'climb the ladder.' not my style. (in fact, i only moved into the coaching position at my school back in dallas because i trusted my principal, Dr. JoAnne Hughes, who asked me to consider the position- thank you for believing in me!) 
interestingly enough, as things would unfold, our company had a bit of a reorg, and a management position opened (again, not my aspiration by any means), but i happened to be reading a couple books- MOVE and RISE, by the same author, and was inspired to give it a go regardless of how unqualified i felt. if you know me at all, you will appreciate that the reason i began to really DESIRE the position was to be an advocate for my colleagues. to find a way to really support and encourage them. i was also super excited to work with my immediate manager...she is so gracious, understanding, calm and supportive. driven by integrity ..i still have a lot that i can learn from her. unfortunately for me, she took a position with our sales department, but it's all good- we get a chance to support her however we can! and we do our best to keep up. i have huge respect for her, as does the rest of the team!
 
 it is certainly a learning game, and i know i will make mistakes. but fortunately i report to a wonderful director, who has been a tremendous mentor and help!! and i am also very fortunate to have two manager peers on either coast who think outside the box, are so supportive and open to new ideas. we have a leadership team in which honesty and vulnerability is welcome...hard conversations happen because there is safety, and we are challenged to try new things. #challengeaccepted

 BUT what really keeps me going and makes me excited to wake up and start the day is my team! i'm a little obsessed with my team... i just want the best for every single one of them! whether it's work-related or personal life, my prayer is that they thrive and if i can help that happen, my life is a little richer! every single one of them is talented, creative, brilliant...each one a problem-solver and willing to do whatever it takes. i am surrounded by people much smarter and more talented than myself- i LOVE our discussions and thought partnering with them! i am merely here to help shine the light back on them and help them help teachers, schools and districts as much as possible. i am fortunate and grateful. 

 so that is the work side of things...

there are more stories there, but today's goal is just to get caught up! 

 while work takes up the biggest portion of my days, there are the fun moments, and this summer, the theme is paddle boarding or kayaking to the sandbar to soak up the vitamin d and hopefully meet a rich captain...although it's harder than it sounds because once we anchor, i just lay out on the board and enjoy the sun, which in turn makes it difficult to meet people because it is highly unlikely that an eligible bachelor will just come drifting into the shallows while i'm soaking up the sun. but let's be honest, this is how i feel the movie should play out. otherwise, i'm just going to paddle myself home and cuddle with chaco. and to be clear, he's a good best friend- predictable!

did i mention i'm still thankful to have had the opportunity to relocate to florida, going on 6 1/2 years now! my only regret- friends being so far away.

i think we have the gist and now i will be more consistent and work my way back to more specific stories, because that is where the fun happens! 

later-
jr

Tuesday, February 23, 2021

never enough time

 this post is especially for those who have met the boys; an update. i write not for any other reason than it is therapy for me, and it allows friends to know what's up so there isn't that weird question of why are you only posting pictures of chaco? why are you just taking chaco and not 'the boys?' eventually i will pull together a good set of memorial pictures into a video or something. but for now, we're just going to take our time adjusting.

i was given a gift back in early october. i had to take bruno in because we thought he might have a blockage, but after a couple hours in the wee hours of the morning, they recommended taking him for an ultrasound, and there i was told by the dr. that it was inconclusive, but they suspected cancer, so we opted for prednisone which would give us about 4 months. and he came back and was a happy pup! 

we took this one a couple weeks ago when we had a good walk around the grounds
i decided that if it was true, we were spending the next 4 months eating treats, walking and napping (he prefers that over playing). and we did. it was such a blessing to have to work completely remotely this year, as i was able to spend the quality time with him, and didn't have to leave him once!

one of our last nights at the foot of the bed
sometime in the last week, enjoying the softest little rug i toted in for him
about two weeks ago bruno began to do a small sneeze with his breathing; somewhat in spurts...when he was napping, he was peaceful. i figured perhaps that was a sign that the prednisone was wearing off. the night before the boys had their bi-annual check-up, bruno was having a breathing fit in the early hours of the morning, so i picked him up and paced the room, and when he calmed and my arms were getting tired, i laid him on my bed, and i adjusted to accommodate him and we had fitful bouts of sleep that night. 

when i checked him in on friday morning, i was convinced it was our last visit to the vet, and i asked them to do a Quality of Life Check before going through with the rest of the visit, and i left with a heavy heart. so when they called and the vet told me she thought it was just a cold, because she had seen quite a bit of mucous when she was inspecting him and he was sneezing. she suggested that he might just be congested, and did we want to try antibiotics? i was relieved and hopeful to have just a little more time!

we came home, did our evening routine-no one was hungry, but i was able to get them to eat just enough to give bruno his first round of antibiotics, chaco wasn't scheduled to get his pain meds until the next morning, as he'd just had 3 teeth removed and had stitches with an injected pain med. they did indulge in some treats before bed, and when i went to finish washing some dishes, bruno laid in his bed by the couch and got comfortable, so i left him there with the nightlight on, and left the bedroom door open so he could wander in when he was ready.

our last pic (still seemed to be doing fine)

around 12:30 am i heard a sound i pray i never hear again. at first i thought chaco's pain meds had worn off, and his mouth was hurting, but i looked and he was laying by my feet a bit confused.

when i went to the living room and turned on the light, bruno looked to be staring off in the distance. when i went to pick him up, he was limp and lifeless. i was not sure what to do or really how to feel. i'd gone to bed unsuspecting. so i wrapped him in his small blanket and cradled him for a bit, then sat on the couch petting him for about an hour watching for a breath or a heartbeat.

i had to google what to do because i have never had to do this, and no one tells you these things. so i wrapped him a bit tighter and prepped him. i still live in an apartment here, so i had no place to bury him, which meant a call to the crematory. i called and left a message, and they called me early the next morning to give me information on what to do.

i took him to the sarasota pet crematory and the gentleman (jim?) who greeted me was very pleasant and kind. we were able to get through all the paperwork and make some decisions through tears and several kleenex. he informed me that they would hold him over the weekend, and the actual act would be done on monday, with the ashes being ready by the afternoon or tuesday. i said tuesday was fine, and decided that it would just be best to take a sick day on tuesday to pick him up and deal, just to be safe- you can never trust your emotions, eyes or voice in these situations!

i canceled saturday and sunday plans and just hung out with chaco. when i came home from the crematory on saturday, he was sniffing around the apt and whined a little...i wasn't sure if he was looking for bruno, or if his mouth hurt, or if he was frustrated that he couldn't find his squeaky toy. so we ended up going out to robinson preserve to walk on the soft track for some fresh air. i think it was his mouth that had been bothering him, and i ended up carrying him much of our little walk. we will probably get over to see wembley sometime this week because it has been awhile. also i think chaco is wanting attention from other people. he looks at people and starts wagging his tail whenever they walk by...needing some contact!

i think he's not sure what to do on a walk because he was always so used to taking cues from bruno!

chaco- trying to pretend he's enjoying this

my friends were so thoughtful-after i canceled and let them know why, they brought over the sweetest card and a plant and a favorite drink. hopefully i can keep the plant growing!

i'm very fortunate to have thoughtful friends!

so today is tuesday and i went to pick up his little urn. they really are professional and i will be giving them an excellent review. the urn is sweet, they were able to get a nice paw impression. i brought everything home and then went to the beach for a walk because walking is always good, and the sun combats sad. 

perfect Christmas ornament


simple like bruno

they included a little packet of wild flowers to plant as a memorial-raving fans


still a bit raw and not able to actually talk about bruno, because i cannot trust my feelings yet. they change with the wind...it can be the smallest thought, or sight of a toy or something we used to do or say as a routine...

i have a feeling i may be trying to sneak chaco into random places with me: stores, beach, etc. he doesn't love being left home alone, but we'll figure things out.

give your pets extra pets and treats tonight!

julie

Saturday, September 26, 2020

celebration and loss, relishing the good while tolerating the bad

**I meant to post this back in July, but things were raw and i wasn't quite ready.

i was able to visit my parents in alabama at the beginning of june, which was wonderful because they celebrated their 50th anniversary! This is such a milestone these days when everything is so disposable. i have the utmost respect and gratitude for their example of what a Godly marriage can look like! thank you!

i'm going to bypass all the crap going on in the US for a minute, because if i start talking about anything related to COVID19, or the protests, i'm sure i will spark intense debate, and that is not my purpose. i don't believe that social media is the place for this, these conversations should be happening in person with people that actually know my heart-that is the only way we can have true communication void of superficial judgement. too many people don't know me well enough to hear what i have to say.

anyhoo. that said, i recently had a classmate who passed away due to complications from COVID19 back home. our class was so small (i counted 54 in our yearbook- but there are a couple extra that are still considered classmates even though they may have not graduated at the same time from eis, that said, small class), and everyone knows everyone and is in everyone's business. more-so back in the day than now, since we have dispersed to different countries and spread out a bit. we all remain connected through internet and heart! 

this loss was a huge loss within the class because he really had a uniting personality. when i had the opportunity to visit home a few years back, he had reached out to try to get together, but our schedules didn't match up, and we missed that window of opportunity. we followed each other on insta and fb, and kept up via whatsapp. i LOVED watching interactions of fito and our classmates at the beach, out in utila.. he would post about guns, pets and atv's and i started to really look forward to catching up in person at our next class reunion because we have SO much in common and i think we would have had rich conversation and so much to talk about! i just want that opportunity back, and it will never happen now. i hate that. now is the time to reconnect- don't put it off!!

**9-26-2020 update
even at this point, it seems surreal, almost as if he'll be with us in our next get-together. today i heard the sad news that his father passed away just this morning. it is tragic, and a very sad chapter of the story. my heart is heavy for his mom, and for his sister, who was one of my basketball teamates, and someone i remember with great fondness (side note, she married one of my former classmates from academia los pinares, in tegucigalpa!); as one of my classmates had mentioned, it's sad to think that her son will have to grow up without having gotten to know his uncle and grandfather. 

i can't imagine removing his contacts from FB, Insta, or Whatsapp... messages...the last one i had, i go back to read because it keeps the memory alive. it was merely weeks before he passed, making the loss even more shocking.

i look forward to keeping a place at the table for fito when we do finally have the chance to all get together again. we will destapar una cerveza and leave an empty chair for him at the table! RIP don rodolfo y fito.

don't save your words. you never know which ones you will hold onto as the last, so make them cherished memories-
julie

Saturday, May 16, 2020

ninja, sketchy conceal carry class and TP in the sky

i know i have promised a post about the cockroach, but that will have to wait a minute.

i am happy to say that things here are cautiously getting back to normal...not sure what that means, but they just announced at today's county meeting that they are dropping the beach parking restrictions. that is normal enough for me! they were restricting parking from 10 am- 9 pm, which basically meant that i could not park there for morning walks, so my motivation to walk 1.5 miles to the beach from cortez village was relatively low... but i've already set my alarm for tomorrow morning, thank you commissioners!

mama turtle tracks-it's season!
That said, i went yesterday after work, and they allow 2 hours parking. so i walked a little, then pulled out the hammock for a bit. my time limit came to an end and it was before the sunset, but i knew that if i wanted to get to the store, i needed to go because they have been closing by 8pm...and i needed some greens! i made it, but it was tight! i did a little splurge as well, but it was something that i'd been thinking about for awhile and the time had come. i had been putting it off because apartment living is the devil in disguise as far as space goes. i have so many kitchen items, but so little space in my kitchen. i did some researching, and i have several ninja products, so when i saw that they produce a toaster oven that flips up for storage, i was sold! and the walmart near me had said item.

there will be an abundance of roasted veggies in my future!
the roasted chicken and roasted peppers...yummers!

so mom and dad, next time you visit, we can actually make toast without firing up the oven...i may or may not have roasted sweet potatoes and broccoli for lunch, then roasted chicken, peppers and onions for dinner. it has already been worth every penny! and i may or may not have tried some mini blueberry turnovers...and sugar cookies. oops. #covidcurses

this past weekend was a good weekend- i went to help a friend lay a few patches of sod, then came home to celebrate my sister-friend's birthday on a zoom celebration...then after a little nap, met up with a couple friends to go do a little kayak/paddleboard adventure! same place as before, in the sarasota inlet....it was a strong current, so we stopped at the first clearing, knowing that the return would be brutal. there was a moment when shea's pup was chasing a stick by the point and could've easily been swept away, but fortunately ezzie and shea were able to man-handle the 100 lb beast and get him out of the current and move around the rocks toward the beach! all's well. on the return we saw some dolphins- it seems to be a good area to chance encounter these friendlies!
now, the parking may or may not have been blocked of, so we may of may not have parked in a secret-ish lot behind the abandoned tennis courts and hiked a quarter of a mile to the bay...worth it!

then mother's day was relaxing. i did get out to the beach, and parking was not an issue (still the 2 hour limit), no issue because rain had been predicted- in fact there was a 30-40 percent chance, so i had checked the doppler radar, and kept an eye on it. i got in a good little walk, then set up the hammock and it was beautiful! then as my 2 hour limit was approaching, there came that quick brisk breeze, which was my first indicator, i looked at my radar app, and it was upon us; thankfully my take-down time for the hammock is record, so i was back to my car just as the big raindrops began to fall from the sky. i love to be dry, so i was glad that i remembered the lessons learned from joe at kamp in regards to the weather!
it was slightly comical watching other running to their cars from my dry fortress...don't judge.
what else? well...i'm trying to help the local doughnut business- thank you, peachey's! they should be preparing for their fair circuit up north, but it seems rather uncertain right now, so we'll take advantage of them being in town as long as possible...it's kinda' like when you get ready to leave and you keep saying goodbye, and then running in each other again- like if you were in the tsa line and you keep seeing each other as you round the corner...only it's me showing up buying donuts, so not like tsa at all. whatever, make up your own anecdote if you feel you need one.
snicker-doodle glazed, and the most amazing buttery sourdough pretzel-just what the doctor ordered...yep...pretty sure i heard fauchi say this was the covid19 cure in one of those pressers...
i had allowed my tx conceal/carry to expire, so i was all in when my friend mentioned going to take the class to qualify for the conceal carry permit here in florida. it was at a little mom and pop target practice place, and to be quite honest, it seemed a little suspect. the others in the class were all men, there was a very strange guy who sat up front-i don't ask questions, but he seems like the type who is probably not married and lives in a little cabin in the mountains (only there are no mountains here)...so i don't know what the equivalent here would be...burial mounds? idk. anyhoo. there was a guy at our table who didn't seem to have a firm grasp on the language, and a young buck who had probably never really spent much time around guns. then two older gentlemen who were former leo, or current guards. so the class was nothing like i imagined. you have to understand that in texas it seemed a little more serious. here it seemed like a bit of an after-thought, and even at that, the trainer said he was one of the more exigent of trainers in the area...(insert sketchy-face emoji here).
i mean...the classroom was under a tarp off to the side of the building, held up by branch poles and a ladder where the important documents were held. no video. no internet. nothing but a little story-telling and guidance. i wasn't sure what to think. actually, i was very glad that i had previously taken the course in texas, and had plenty of practice time. it was pretty close, and they do have a good membership deal, so i will probably go back just for the practice.
i may need to just take my own targets- i miss the place i used to go in plano!
in other news, i walked to the little mail kiosk last week, and on the way back i saw something going on in the sky, so i had the boys join me in the shade to see what was going on. at first, i thought it was a request or advertisement for toilet paper, but the plane continued to churn out more letters until the word TRUST was written in the sky. i don't think there was anything else, but i had to go back inside because: work. but it was something different!
i was amused at first, and then the pilot had to go on and make it philosophical...


and i have been trying to transition to hot tea in the afternoon instead of coffee because sleep is a good thing at night. anyhoo, i've tried to like hot tea before and it just never stuck. so i decided to follow some hints that noom dropped, and the republic of tea delivered! i think this could be a game changer...we'll give it a go. so far, so good!
i do enjoy both.

find your calm and wind-down zone, get out when you can, and always keep an eagle-eye on the strange guy in class!

julie

Sunday, April 26, 2020

Easter brunch, splashing in the rain, lobster rolls- fortunate

so much going on. i have fallen behind because i have multiple irons in the metaphorical fire. let's see, how about we start with my favorite thing-yesterday i met up with my friends for lobster rolls! we did the curbside pick up thing (from different cars), then drove out to longboat key to eat them and just enjoy the bayside view from a restaurant parking lot. this was the first time mermaid's pies and produce has been open for several weeks, so it was certainly a treat!! please ask how many times i have driven by and looked for the open sign! and here's the best part- a friend had seen that i was going, because i had post something about it, and he venmo'd $ to enjoy my treat!! #randomactsofkindness #COVOD19-style now to pass along the kindness!
best lobster rolls around! 
it had rained almost all of last week, after a long dry spell. in fact, so dry that there had been a burn ban in effect for quite some time...in fact the pond out near my parking lot looked like two big puddles, it was that dry. it has since filled in quite nicely, as it seems we are moving into some rainy season activity. also, some of the first turtles have begun laying nests.
ah, the rain!
so last week i went out for a walk and parked by the little maritime museum in cortez and walked over the bridge toward my favorite beach park because there is still no parking there, and beaches have yet to open. as i was walking down gulf drive, there was a large puddle in front of one of the motels and that was were i was walking when it happened. it was still dark out, but there were street lights...and i had on a bright coral long-sleeve, apparently not bright enough. an 18-wheeler, going much faster than necessary, hit that puddle like he had every intention to see how high he could make the puddle fly. i got soaked, and i my immediate reaction was to yell some unseemly things that should never be repeated. for an instant i considered returning to my car (i was about halfway through my walk, sopping wet, and a bit chilly), but i kept going...partly in hopes that the driver would have stopped ahead with engine problems and i might be able to get off a good throat punch and knee to the groin... i was driven for at least the next 7 minutes. then as approached the park, the sun was rising, and i was rewarded with the most beautiful sunrise! and a bit further down, i had to stop and take in the beach view, since it's been so long! then i made my way back to where i had parked, thankful that my car hadn't been towed.
gorgeous, no?

on the way home i walked on the opposite side of the street, but there's the puddle lake

i forgot treats, so they were not up for Easter pics...i'm sure everyone has experienced this with their families as well.

and for Easter, i listened to an online message and watched a special, then went over to do brunch with my friends shea and patrick. i took some mini brie/gruyere/carmelized onion quiches, and they had put together some eggs, bacon, and the 'piece de resistance' KANAKUK KAMP CoffeeCake! amazing!
YUM!
we caught up for a bit, then i went home for a bit to take a nap, before reconvening with 3 other friends to do an egg-hunt with snacks, chit-chat, social distancing around the pool, and then patrick's homemade noodles with pesto! yummers! good to see the crew-safely.


did you notice how there are 4 separate stations to sit at?! #playingbytherules
the past few weeks have been an inspiring time to create my own cards and stationery because, as we know, i like to write letters, and at this time, the store really doesn't have much that suits my needs! plus, it's been a great outlet to use some pent-up creativity! (much inspired by a video that one of my friends shared with me!).
these are a few-i've already sent a few others out...spread the joy!
in other news, there have been some fun video conferences for work and play. and this afternoon, i was inspired to try whipped coffee-one of my friends posted a pic of hers, and i've had something saved because i'd been meaning to try it for quite sometime. i happened to find some instant decaf, and thought, 'JACKPOT!" because this meant i didn't have to go to the store! but unfortunately when i opened it, it had all disintegrated/melted together...something, but it was definitely not good. gosh, how long had i had that canister, yikes! so i did in fact have to go to the store...and in my hurry, i parked the car and realized that i had forgotten my debit card at home...(zero motivation to go back), so i fished around in my coin jar, and had $2, so i opted for the dollar general next door to get a mini-jar of instant coffee to do this thing!

 i made the first batch and spooned it over some iced-coffee- not bad...but i wasn't convinced. so i followed it up with a second batch and spooned it over coconut milk. i was pleased with the result!

again, i am grateful. thankful to have a job, a place to lay my head, my boys, friends, food, a sense of humor...i am fortunate and i don't want to take any good thing for granted.

i hope your weekend has been everything you needed it to be!
julie


Thursday, April 9, 2020

how far? 8 and a half puppies...

alrighty then...it's been a few days. a lot going on. who are we kidding. so, how far apart? one of my friends did a facebook live today for istation, (click here to see), and she talked about some math suggestions, which made me think of this... so, seriously, how far apart? everyone knows it's 6 feet...so it seems like this is a great opportunity to use those approximation skills you learned in kinder, first and second grade when you had to measure with non-standard measurements...like how many fruit loops...how many pencil-lengths...what would be the best thing to measure 6 feet with? answers will vary...depending on geographical location. let's see, from the different places i have lived, what might the measurement be?

illinois- chicago pizzas
kansas city- gates rack of ribs
wisconsin- baby holstein calf
costa rica- shell necklaces from punta arenas
HONDURAS- coffee pods
kansas- wheat sheaves
iowa- corn stalks
missouri- kanakuk kayak
texas- long horns- like literally the span of a longhorn bull's horns
florida-alligator, manatee calf, sea turtles


i did stop by my friend's house for 10 seconds to drop something off, and look...they went and created a home theater and disco...they had to block all light, so this was the solution. #covidcreations
and it worked, they created somewhat of a cave! 
i have continued to walk the river walk- makes for a beautiful sunrise. fortunately the other morning when i arrived to park, there were two older lady walkers talking to an officer, and pointing at a sign. apparently, OVERNIGHT the marina had put up signs and parking is no longer allowed on the north side-reserved for marina folk only...snobs. way to go, bradenton, i hope they paid you well. 
so unimpressed. 

one of the few rewards to waking up....early



so glad the skate park was shut down-too much gathering...


then back at the complex, it was looking a little dead out, but beautiful days! so we put the garage door up and made a makeshift office. the view. (much better the following days after i moved my car). the boys drive me nuts though, because they are out scavenging for leaves-which they eat and then it just makes a mess. but it's nice to go out because the set-up of the apartment doesn't allow for much natural light in the afternoon-it always seems later than it is because all of the windows face the east, and there is a mini-wooded-bush area on the back side. 
pretty, but silent

looking for leaves, looking for bugs...they'll try to put pretty much anything in their mouth to get a reaction.
one of the kinda' cool things to come out of this is that we have had company-wide virtual meetings to touch base and get information out...virtual happy hours on fridays, which is interesting-fun putting names to faces and seeing everyone! it is also neat to be able to learn a little more about the people i would not otherwise be exposed to. 
fortunate to work with such scoundrels!
i may or may not have done the one thing that is making salon-artists across the nation cringe...yep about 3-4 inches. i knew i was going to do it though, and i think i mentioned it in a previous post. it's hair. whatevs. at least i'm not dying my hair and living the mullet dream...(looking at you, lori). some people can pull it off...i'm not one of them.

and these guys. who needs to be in a legit office or see people for 3 months when you have companions like this!?! 
chaco...little romeo...loves people
bruno in the foreground....food-motivated!

we try to work together, but when we're recording or doing serious webinars, they cannot stay because i never know who is going to walk by and make them lose it.
i have a story about a cockroach, and it is almost time to share. stay tuned, that may be tomorrow's feature story...it's a little longer, so i think that will do it for tonight.

wash your hands, and 6ft... an alligator length(baby-ish alligator)...or 8 1/2 puppies!
julie

Monday, March 30, 2020

walking the riverwalk because coffee, bread and thai soup...

maybe it's a psychological thing that i feel like i should sleep in on weekends. always take care of your mental health!

i had a delicious breakfast of oatmeal with blueberries and toasted coconut bread with melted butter and strawberry jelly! yummers- i need to eat this bread and get back on track... so i am sharing some of the bread with friends, and today i made my favorite go-to the thai coconut soup (see recipe here), i use shrimp, but today i added scallops as well. which i will take over with the bread. i did share with friends, and then i had a second bowl, and a strange texture in my mouth. when i pulled it out, it looked like a small animal hair. that was weird...so i thought through every ingredient, wondering if any can or carton could have been contaminated...then it dawned on me- the lemongrass...it's in a squeeze tube and chunky-and these were tiny fibrous pieces that hadn't gotten ground up (i even got the tube out to squeeze some out to double check). whew! i need to cut back on the fish oil, because it was a bit salty, too, and no one needs a sodium attack (ask lot's wife about too much NaCl!)

so today i mulled over where to walk today. i finally landed on the BRADENTON RIVERWALK. i got in my 10k steps, and realized that it has been a minute since i've done a serious walk there. so i think this is going to be replacing the beach walk until they open that up again. i like Robinson Preserve as well, so i may inter-mix them...but i last year the river walk was when i started to get serious about getting back into shape, and so i know it'll be a good time!
so...pretty sure you're supposed to be imagining this mama manatee swimming underwater with her calf...unless you're like me, you may be seeing a manatee olympian with a discus-calf getting ready to break world records...
below are two videos: 1. looking back toward bradenton and the marina and 2. back in bradenton on the east side of the bridge looking back.

the bradenton riverwalk park pretending to be a beach...
now to finish up the coconut bread, and get serious about the food part!

for the most part people were doing what they should in regards to distance (minus the skate park and the exercise station). #fools couples seemed to be the only ones walking together, and every time i walked passed someone, i would look the other way and make sure not to breathe...it kinda' reminded me of when we would drive past a cemetery when we were young, and someone would say, "don't breathe, or you'll breathe in the ghosts!" fyi: a. that i know of, i've never breathed in a ghost b. it was great practice for a respiratory virus spread by saliva droplets! although it makes me look stuck up or rude... oh well. i'm sure when i get up early there will be far fewer out.

finished my walk and did the hand sanitizer and lysol routine when i got into my car... to the ridiculous degree, because i didn't even touch anyone or anything. #coronavirusgotusallparanoid

so all of that was yesterday, and i forgot to set my alarm because i was seriously planning to get up this morning and walk! anyhoo, this was a super busy day, and i had to write everything down to get to it and not forget what's what! tomorrow will be just as busy and maybe i breathe and use the bathroom on thursday...

i was ecstatic to get my package in the mail from terra verde coffee!! my friend from high school-eis
 #gobulldogs marko and his wife, missy, are coffee connoisseurs.
amazing coffee? um, yes, please, i think i will!
 i ordered from them because..HONDURAN COFFEE! my dear friend, tania woke the beast by gifting me HONDURAN coffee at Christmastime! seriously, i couldn't find the brand she'd brought (only at cafeteo, i suppose and the next time i get down there, i will get some), but i am pretty excited about my new supply chain! in fact, i was so excited that i dumped the coffee i had on burner into a mason jar (we'll do iced coffee with that later)...and i made another half pot in the afternoon! that's a pretty big deal, but it was TOTES worth it!! so, if you are looking for a good coffee, and want to support small business and fair trade, check out TERRA VERDE HERE! i'm sure this 1lb bag won't last long...next time i'll go big or go home... 5 pounder, i'm lookin' at you! i got the COMUCAP- and i will definitely get it again!
it was a welcome friend during our afternoon webinar!
so that is where we are for right now! i hope all is well and everyone is washing their hands!

blessings-
julie